Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Sunday, December 14, 2008


what else have i promised You? what else? sobrang dami na! but i cant keep it, im so freakin bad that i jst cant keep it. tell me what else is there na kailangan kong gawin? ilang tao pa ang kailangan kong masaktan? gaano ko pa kababa ko ilalagay ang sarili ko para sa isang bagay na i think i deserve since the start? im here, pls hear me out. please.

Friday, December 12, 2008

xmas party pics by jennie




xmas party 08. thanks jen for lending me your bf on these pics. atleast it looked like i ddnt go alone that night.hahahah.
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Yup, its been 3 years bridging the gap with eCon, US Call-Quest and BPO. Thanks Jason.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Thanks Dish and Debt


I ddnt really plan on anything on my bday but they did so, Thanks. Nothing much to celebrate. Im 27. Waaahh.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Playful Santi at Bulacan



Santi getting cozy at our condo in santolan crame.



The late Maurice at our house in santolan pasig.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Mahal, listen to this song by Rihanna ( Hate that I Love you )

As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)
[Ne-Yo:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did
[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong
[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)
[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
[Rihanna:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right
[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...
[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you
[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. so...

Monday, October 06, 2008

8 easy, instant mood boosters

Healthy Living - Yahoo
1. Clear your space, clear your mind.
2. Put on a little mood-lifting music.
3. Make yourself laugh (or at least grin).
4. Focus on your favorite color.
5. Mix up something good to eat or drink.
6. Stretch yourself.
7. Exhale the tension, then inhale something that smells sweet.
8. Start over.

Maurice

In loving memories of my pomeranian Mau Mau < --- his pics.



Sunday, October 05, 2008

http://bdayandchristening.blogspot.com/

^^^pics from Clarence 1st Bday and Christening

Saturday, October 04, 2008

25 Fascinating Love Facts

1. Men who kiss their wives in the morning live five years longer than those who don't.
2. People are more likely to tilt their heads to the right when kissing instead of the left (65 percent of people go to the right!)
3. When it comes to doing the deed early in the relationship, 78 percent of women would decline an intimate rendezvous if they had not shaved their legs or underarms.
4. Feminist women are more likely than other females to be in a romantic relationship.
5. Two-thirds of people report that they fall in love with someone they've known for some time vs. someone that they just met.
6. There's a reason why office romances occur: The single biggest predictor of love is proximity.
7. Falling in love can induce a calming effect on the body and mind and raises levels of nerve growth factor for about a year, which helps to restore the nervous system and improves the lover's memory.
8. Love can also exert the same stress on your body as deep fear. You see the same physiological responses — pupil dilation, sweaty palms, and increased heart rate.
9. Brain scans show that people who view photos of a beloved experience an activation of the caudate — the part of the brain involving cravings.
10. The women of the Tiwi tribe in the South Pacific are married at birth.
11. The "Love Detector" service from Korean cell phone operator KTF uses technology that is supposed to analyze voice patterns to see if a lover is speaking honestly and with affection. Users later receive an analysis of the conversation delivered through text message that breaks down the amount of affection, surprise, concentration and honesty of the other speaker.
12. Eleven percent of women have gone online and done research on a person they were dating or were about to meet, versus seven percent of men.
13. Couples' personalities converge over time to make partners more and more similar.
14. The oldest known love song was written 4,000 years ago and comes from an area between the Tigris and Euphrates Rivers.
15. The tradition of the diamond engagement ring comes from Archduke Maximillian of Austria who, in the 15th century, gave a diamond ring to his fiancée, Mary of Burgundy.
16. Forty-three percent of women prefer their partners never sign "love" to a card unless they are ready for commitment.
17. People who are newly in love produce decreased levels of the hormone serotonin — as low as levels seen in people with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Perhaps that's why it's so easy to feel obsessed when you're smitten.
18. Philadelphia International Airport finished as the No. 1 best airport for making a love connection, according to an online survey.
19. According to mathematical theory, we should date a dozen people before choosing a long-term partner; that provides the best chance that you'll make a love match.
20. A man's beard grows fastest when he anticipates sex.
21. Every Valentine's Day, Verona, the Italian city where Shakespeare's play Romeo and Juliet took place, receives around 1,000 letters addressed to Juliet.
22. People telling the story of how they fell in love overwhelmingly believe the process is out of their control.
23. Familiarity breeds comfort and closeness … and romance.
24. One in five long-term love relationships began with one or both partners being involved with others.
25. OK, this one may not surprise you, but we had to share it: Having a romantic relationship makes both genders happier. The stronger the commitment, the greater the happiness!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

something touching

Art Of Letting Go - mikaila

one of the reasons why people get so sentimental
it because, memerories are the only things that dont change...
when everything else does...
there are things in life that you cant hold on forever,
no matter how much you fight for it.
Sometimes destiny isnt always good, it becomes playful,
when you met someone you learned to love, you thought
that it was destiny who made your paths cross.
but what if making your paths cross is just a
part of the game that the playful destiny create?
making you realize in the end that the person
you thought that was destined for youwasnt
really meant to stay ...but only destined to
make you feel love and leave you when youve
already fallen. its not easy to state a reason
when you decide to leave your love. sometimes
might think its just an excuse...some might
not actually believe... some will blame you...
some might even be mad at you. what they
dont see is the fact that it hurts you even
more to hurt someone who deosnt deserve to
be hurt...especially when you cant actually
state the reason why you have to leave...
you can never own something that was never yours...
so lets stop gripping on things we expect to last forever
nothing lasts forever...forever is a lie, everything
is transitory... so while you have something in your hand
put in mind that its just borrowed.. so that someday
when its gone, it wont take you eternity just to let go..
when your feelings gets strong for someone, its always,
wise to stop for a while and give your heart...
time to breath a time to use your mind to weigh the
situation based on reason not on emotions because the saddest
thing that can happen is when on fall inlove while the other wants
nothing more than friendship...love can somethimes be magic.. but
magic can sometimes be an illusion... there are times when i wish that
i was united to certain emotions....so that ill never have to experience
pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed and never get my fragile
heart broken, but same thing means that ill never know how it
feels to love, be loved in return... the thought of it kind of scares
me to have a heart thats whole but numb... or
a heart thats broken but real... someday, we will all be looking
back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight, maybe
when that time comes, well be laughing at our old dumb selves.
realizing how stupid we were to stand up for things when you
werent really meant for us. but i guess learning takes time and
mistakes one journey fun... life is what we make it.
love makes the world go round... so lets live, love and take
whatever pain it brings,though its hard to wait around for
something that i know will never happened...its harder to stop when i
know its everything ive always wanted but you know what im
glad, it happend where good friends and im thankful for that,
take care always my dear friend, im just here.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Herb, this is what i feel everytime were together. You make me feel so happy mahal.

I Could Not Ask For More : Edwin McCain

http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/I-Could-Not-Ask-for-More-lyrics-Edwin-McCain/0BEE288C0FE868B64825694B00272DCD

Tuesday, September 16, 2008


I curse you! YOU WILL NEVER BE HAPPY! Never!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

ur the reason bitch

to the person that came between us
to the person that made me lose him
to the person that came between me and them

may our paths not cross for you will sure get a piece of me
i wish you ill and may the darkness takes you and burn to hell
u devil in disguise, may every1 see you as you have revealed yourself to me

I MAY SOUND SO BAD BUT REMEMBER YOU MADE ME
YOU MESSED MY LIFE UP AND FOR THAT YOURE UNFORGIVEN
I DESPICE YOU!

every day i would try to be nice but i always end up so freakin bad. how do i not see you? i want you out cant you see? ur the reason why ang bigat ko makisama sa lahat! ikaw! ikaw! ikaw! i tried everything to be at peace but it all comes back with your face i see in the corner of my eyes! para kang isang anino na sumusunod sakin. plastik! nakukuha mo pa ngumiti sakin? after what youve done? ang kapal mo!

Friday, August 29, 2008

A hint of love, a bit of fear

I look in the mirror, with you in my arms
And I see a reflection
Of a smile that says you believe in love
And just for a moment, I drifted away
But I couldn't stay cuz
A hint of love, a bit of fear
I'm tryin' to say

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you

Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here

-Tamia-

If all people could just BUZZ first like she does first before giving heart and soul, then there wouldnt be any heartaches or atleast it wouldnt be that bad for a fall.
I hate forcing myself to let go of one person that I need in my life. Its the only thing that makes sense. But at the same time, its the same thing that complicates me. I know that I am better off without that person yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go. So now I ask, is emptiness better than constant hurting?

I was not aware that he came only to love me for a while. I was aiming to be with him forever but hes not willing to work it out. While i was busy planning for us, he was busy planning his life for another person. It hurts too much but all i can do is watch him walk away and thats the end of it. There goes life.
Qoutes from Jassy Baby

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Ocean Park Adventure


I told my mom a couple of months ago that I will bring them to Baguio this December and she refused to. She then just mentioned that she wanted to go to ocean park. She liked it from the looks on a local news couple of months ago. So I decided to bring her there yesterday with my sister. It was a tiry day. After a 12 hr Saturday night shift, i then took the MRT to meet them at Taft. It was raining so we decided to eat first. On the table we then put on ready our cameras. Sad to know, my sister forgot to bring the battery of my digicam that I charged the night before. I looked at my phone which has a better resolution and saw I only have 1 bar left too. So we then just settled with my sisters not so good cell phones camera. It was so tiry, thankfully I took aleve capsules which also took off the pain of my newly pierced eyebrow. here are some pics that we took, 1 think I can say, my sister, mama and I are not camera shy hahahahaha.
Pictures here : At Ocean Park

Saturday, August 23, 2008

eyebrow pierce

I got an eyebrow piercing today. It feels good. Its like the inner me wanting to come out all these years is finally out. Ive had several piercing on my ears before. And one on my nose too. But the eyebrow pierce looks really crazy. Well everyone thinks I did it for a reason, everyone can think what ever they wanna think. But for me, I did it for self satisfaction. Way back mid 90s, i got a pierce on my nose and my mom made me took it off. Well, my mom hasnt seen this eyebrow thing yet but shes not gonna take over me this time, it will stay. Hahahah. I thought at first it was gonna hurt big time but it didnt. So much for the corporate days, Im now letting my boyish look out and I dont care what they say. I look like a gangster from the hood now! I guess, next is tatoos? Oh well, who could tell?

Courtesy of Pain and Leisure Tattoo. Thanks Randy 'RNB' Barnedo. PLT is DOH Certified and Philtag member. If you wanna get one too... you can contact him tru 6476866 / 09153880961.




Thursday, August 21, 2008

I can’t express how angry! I am right now and the sad thing is i can’t do anything about it, all i can do is nod, smile and pretend that i dont give a damn, shit! Fuck everyone! Fuck them all. I dont care if it’s me and me alone against the world. when all of them has turn their back on me,when all has messed up the account we have worked hard for, when all of them has lied on my face that they are not doing it! I dont care if you have befriend the ones that i despise, i dont care if I lost a friend, i dont care at all! Shit! such a waste of trust and friendship, so much for being close, perhaps weve shared so many happy times that it has come to a point where everything is just unbearable, or should I say this is the kind where you are my friend in good times and when the going gets tough you are on your own. So much lies and deception, I see that, don’t think that I didn’t. The simple remarks, the simple eye to eye contacts, the simple nods. Only those that hide means they have done something wrong. So don’t hide it from me. I will move on and you will see. One thing is i will make sure im not the one empty handed in the end. We’ll see. I hate you bestfriend!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Me with my DISH babies...Team Lead Dexter of GY and Team Lead Edzel of AM. Together we stand, Divided we fall, Together we stand to the top of the world! Lately weve been tru a tough time, but well get tru this I know. Love you guys!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Gary Valenciano - Take Me Out Of The Dark

Just what is it in me?
Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go

And though you're in me now,
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so
Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way

I've never known a Man
Who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Teach us to trust in you
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
We just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord'
Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
We don't wanna be there, My Lord

Trust in You with all my heart
Lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, My Lord
Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
I don't want to be there

since we all need money

The money Angel

Friday, August 15, 2008

Thursday, August 14, 2008

My Black Heart


My Black Heart
by RobynWolf


Into the darkness I retreat, now that we part
I 've put you away forever in my black heart
As I drown in my tears, as my soul aches
For the last time my heart breaks


What you truly are, I know now
I 'm sure I was in love, but unsure how
You will move on to someone else I know
And I will heal from this wounding blow

As the new moon comes, my spirit will rise
I will be uncaring to your demise
My heart was yours but my life was blue
My black heart no longer belongs to you

But very careful the next time, I will be
My heart will take more time, you see
I am finished with you, I will never look back
I can move ahead now, with my heart of black.

Friday, August 08, 2008

"Why A Man Gets 'Scared Away' When You Try To Get Him ToCommit For The Long-Term-And What To Do About It..."
This was a forwarded email from a friend, something you might wanna read....





"Why A Man Gets 'Scared Away' When You Try To Get Him ToCommit For The Long-Term-And What To Do About It..."

An Open Letter To A Woman Who Wants To ATTRACT And KEEP Mr. Right...
Dear Friend,
I'd like to ask you a few questions. Be open and honest with yourself as you answer them...
Have you ever met a guy who seemed to be "Mr. Right", but after getting to know him better you could tell that he just didn't feel that same level of "connection" you felt?
You were attracted to him, but he just wasn't into you the same way you were into him?
In your mind, you could sense what a great guy he was, and that, somewhere deep inside, you both shared this strong "chemistry" that made you feel close and comfortable. But for some reason he didn't want to truly connect with you.
Another one...
Have you ever slept with a guy very quickly after meeting him, but as it started to happen you got that sinking feeling in your stomach? You knew it was a mistake, but you did it anyway. And then the thing you KNEW would happen actually happened: He unexplainably disappeared from your life. Honestly, have you ever had this happen?
Of course, the worst part wasn't that it happened, but that you KNEW you shouldn't have done it in the first place... but you did it anyway.
And finally:
Have you ever dated a great guy for a long time... I'm talking about six months, twelve months, or even longer... and it was getting to the point where you needed to have "the talk" with him. But when you tried to bring up the topic of having a relationship and making a bigger commitment, his eyes just glazed over... and then he became distant from you... and the relationship ended soon after?
You were trying to get CLOSER to him, and somehow he kept moving farther AWAY from you.
I'm guessing that when one of these things happened, your girlfriends said things like:
"He's just a jerk, forget about him".
Or they said: "He doesn't see the mistake he's making or what he'll be missing". But he never seemed to see these mistakes... or even miss you.
And the worst part of all: You kept thinking about it.
In fact, it really GOT TO YOU. And I'll bet the REASON why it got to you is because you worried that it might have been something to do with YOU (and not just because he was a total jerk).
In fact, TO THIS DAY you still have the feeling that YOU may have done something wrong, and that you may have CAUSED some of the problems in the first place... and if you would have known the RIGHT thing to do, things would have turned out differently...
Unfortunately, the bad news is that you're probably right.
Chances are you DID have something to do with it, and things probably WOULD have turned out differently if you would have known how to deal with the situation.
You COULD have done something about it... if only you had known WHAT to do...
The Secret To Attracting And KeepingA Great Guy...
The main PROBLEM here, and the thing that stood in your way, is that men aren't easy to understand. And when you find a good man, he doesn't come with an "instruction manual".
Just because your girlfriends told you it wasn't your fault, or that he was just "a jerk", doesn't mean that they understood the problem (or that they understand men at all, for that matter).
Most women don't "get" men. Your friends who try to comfort and encourage you have good intentions. They're just trying to make you feel better.
But they're also accidentally making the situation WORSE.
They're trying to blame the situation on HIM, instead of trying to help YOU understand how to KEEP a great guy around.
This situation is MOST dangerous when you meet a really GREAT GUY, but you don't know how to catch him or keep him. Let's face it, great guys are hard to find... and when you do find one, you can't afford to lose him because you made a dumb mistake.
You can't afford to throw away a good six months, a year... or even LONGER... and risk losing what could be a valuable relationship... just because you didn't know how to handle a particular situation.
Well, there is some good news here... I personally believe that there IS something you can do about it.
You CAN learn how to understand men and get them to be open up and understand you. You can learn how to CATCH that great guy, and how to KEEP him.
And how do I know this?
Because I AM a guy. And I've been in all the situations I just mentioned to you... from the OTHER side.
I've seen it from a man's perspective. I've been in those difficult "places" in dating, relationships, and love.
After years and years of experiencing these types of situations and hearing about them from my female friends, I decided to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT...
I spent well over a year carefully documenting and writing about my experiences. I spent much of that time researching, interviewing women, and working out all the ways a woman can get what she wants out of a relationship without scaring off the man she loves... and without letting any of those confusing "guy issues" get in the way. Here's what I discovered:
The 3 Deadly Mistakes Women Make With Men Without EVER Realizing It...
Through my research and personal experience, I've found that these 3 mistakes are responsible for more failed dates and relationships with men than any other factors. Here they are:
» Mistake #1: Leading A Man To Think You Are "Needy" And "Insecure"
Did you know that there are 6 ways you can set off a man's "Insecurity Alert" and make him think twice about pursuing a relationship with you?
Sadly, even confident women often "accidentally" give off one of these signs... and just one can kill the chance of a man asking you on a second date.
As you read through these signals men pick up on as "needy" and unattractive, ask yourself if YOU have ever been guilty of committing one of these deadly mistakes:
Talking or saying nasty things about your past boyfriends. Saying bad things about men you have been involved with actually reflects the negatively back on YOU. It makes a man worry you are carrying around "baggage" that HE will have to deal with should he become involved with you.
Speaking negatively about other women. When women call other women names like "slut", "bitch", and "crazy", it is anything but impressive to a man you are attracted you. Women will often do this when they see a good looking, desirable woman, especially if they feel their man might be attracted to her. This just makes a man think you are trying to cover up your own insecurities, and looking for validation and attention. Not good.
Too much physical contact, especially in public.If you are constantly hanging on a man or touching him too much he'll start to see it as clingy behavior... but you'll never hear about this from him. It's far better to save your touches for short and infrequent moments that will surprise and enchant him.
The next 3 are far deadlier, but less obvious... and it's important that you learn what they are and how to avoid giving them off.
But before I show you how to do that, let's talk about mistake #2:
» Mistake #2: Appealing To His "Sexual" Side Instead Of His Emotional Side
Many women make the mistake of thinking that men are primarily driven by sex alone... and think if they can attract a man SEXUALLY they will be able to attract him EMOTIONALLY as well.
Women too often give up sex to a man in the hopes that it will translate into a relationship and get them what they want. In reality, a man has the capacity to view a sexual connection and an emotional connection as two entirely different things, and it requires a special set of skills to mold these two things together in a man's mind... and keep them connected.
Men are out for far more than just sex... and a woman who knows how to fulfill a man EMOTIONALLY and SEXUALLY will be the woman who captures a man's heart... and gets that same fulfillment for HERSELF. In a moment, I'll show you how you can learn to do just that...
» Mistake #3: Not Knowing How To Size Up A Man's "Relationship Potential"
A lot of women will decide whether or not they should put energy into building a relationship with a man based on ATTRACTION.
Yes, attraction is important. But it can also be DANGEROUS.
When we feel a strong sense of attraction for someone, it can cause us to override our logic and ignore our instincts... leading us to overlook potential partner's deadly faults that could spell trouble down the road.
If you've ever found yourself stuck in a relationship that is dragging you down, this is probably why.
It's important to be able to size a guy up and spot any "warning signs" of a future bad relationship FAST... so you don't waste any of your time or emotional energy on someone who isn't right for you... or who will leave you heartbroken. Fortunately this is a fairly easy thing to do, and I'd like to show you how...
Here's How To Find, Attract, And KEEP The Man You've Always Wanted...
Wouldn't it be nice to skip the dozens of dates with lame and shallow men most women have to go through... and fall right into the arms of the man you really want?
Would you like to learn how to captivate a man with your sharp wits and your kind heart... and never have to worry about just being wanted for sex again?
Would you like to have an almost "unfair" advantage over all other women when it comes to meeting and attracting the man you want... including those women who might be prettier and younger than you?
Are you tired of dealing with men who never really commit?
Do you want to break out of the destructive cycle of meeting men, dating them, getting into relationships, quitting things that you like to do... only to end up breaking up with the guy and feeling like you wasted your love and your life away on him?
Do you ever feel like you just can't find the right man for you... and if you did... that he might not be attracted to YOU? Would you like to know how to change this?
Or is there a man in your life right now with whom you would like to take things from "casual" to "committed", but you're not sure exactly how to do it in a way that you know will work... or even if he is interested in in YOU the same way?
Or are you in a relationship right now that seems to be growing "stale"... because your man doesn't do nice things for you, call you, or make plans the way he used to... and you'd like a fast and easy way to get things back to the way they used to be?
If you answered, "YES" to any of these questions, I have some exciting news for you...
I've put together what I like to think of as a "man manual" that literally ANY woman can use to help her both CATCH and KEEP that great guy when he comes along.
Your "Secret Weapon" For Success With Men
My book is called "Catch Him & Keep Him".
I believe that if you learn how to understand "male psychology" and you learn how to handle a few key specific situations, that you can CATCH the man of your dreams, and then KEEP him for the long-term.
In my new book, I'm going to take you by the hand, and show you step-by-step how to catch that great guy, and then how to KEEP him around for the long-term...
I've decided to publish my book only online in "electronic" format, so you can download it right now , and be reading it within just a few minutes...
I'm not an accomplished author, so this book will have some flaws. If you read for literary quality, it might not be for you.
But if you're looking for the real... the genuine... no B.S. ways to make a man crazy for you, get what you want out of your relationships - and at the same time - avoid any of traps and mistakes that could cost you a lifetime of lost loves, this could be the most important book you'll ever read.
The Secrets Men WISH You Knew- But Don't Know How To Tell You...
Have you ever read a romance novel about a strong-willed woman who met a tough, "dangerous" alpha-male man... and over the course of the story, she "tamed" him and won him over... and made him fall completely and helplessly in love with her... to the point where he wanted to be with her FOREVER?
We've all heard this one before... but does it ever happen in real life?
The answer is YES.
Great guys get snagged all the time. Secretly ALL MEN want to find a woman that gives them that "forever" feeling... and when they do, they want to keep her all for themselves.
So how does this happen? How does a woman give a man that feeling that lets him know that she's "the one"?
Well... as you can imagine... most guys don't really think about this stuff.
And even if they did... just as you don't want to have to tell a man how to turn you on, a man doesn't want to tell you how to make him fall in love with you.
Like you, he just wants it to HAPPEN.
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I started off by talking with women I knew who had "landed" great guys... desirable, successful men that any woman would consider a "catch".
It goes without saying that many other women had tried (unsuccessfully) to tie these guys down.
Not surprisingly, I started to notice some common things...
I noticed that there was one distinct thing these women did at the very beginning to make a man see them as his "future" rather then just a "casual partner".
Each one of them also had a unique, yet simple and accurate way of instantly "sizing a guy up"... so they NEVER wasted time on a guy who wasn't up to their standards (Several of these methods actually got the guy to spill his own "dirty secrets" without knowing it!).
They also had a way of handling conflicts, important situations, and "the talk" that was VERY DIFFERENT from what most men are used to seeing (This method instantly puts a man at ease by creating a "you and I against the world" bond that he treasures deeply).
Why Guys Fall For Some Women And Not Others...
This book wouldn't be complete without the inside "dirt" from us MEN.
I made it my mission to track down dozens and dozens of the "cream of the crop"... and I got them to reveal "hows" and "whys" they themselves had never considered...
Not surprisingly, every guy I talked to had ways of "screening" women FAST... over the years they had learned to recognize certain signs that told them if a woman was insecure, a "drama queen", had "baggage", was needy or attention-starved, and even ways to instantly tell whether or not a woman knew what she was doing "between the sheets" before they ever got near the bedroom.
They also explained what women had done to secure spots in their hearts as the "one and only" (These were guys with plenty of options... but these women did 3 special things that made them completely forget about any and all other women).
And most importantly... I got them to reveal the things these special women had done to make those feelings last and last and last... perhaps the biggest challenge us men face in finding a woman to gave our hearts to.
I've been very fortunate in life in that I've never had a hard time meeting women or getting dates... but finding a woman who can keep my interest and attention has always been a different story...
Come to think of it, I can count the few who "tamed me" on one hand... with a finger or two to spare. (Every guy I interviewed actually said the same.)
So of course when I put this book together I looked back at the special women who made me feel those incredible feelings... and figured out exactly what they did differently then the other women whom I've met and dated.
I lay it all out for you here... and I hold nothing back.
The bottom line is this:
Some women know secrets that other women do not.
Some seem to know them "instinctively", while others figure them out over time.
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Here Are Some Of The Secrets You'll Learn Inside My Informative eBook
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The big mistake women make when having "the talk" and asking a man about the relationship that is guaranteed to make things WORSE than they already are... and what to do about it.
A simple way to get your man to understand your feelings that makes him want to do whatever it takes to take things to the next level (You'll wish you knew about this with every man you were involved with in the past and you'll want to use it with every man you meet from now on)
A simple 3-step method to understanding how your man is feeling that makes him feel closer and closer to you with each step of the process, AND gives you the information you need to keep things moving forward
The BIG SECRET all happy couples share that unhappy couples never realize until it's already too late (You can use this at any stage in a relationship or even when you're just dating to keep things going on the right track)
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The key to making a man forget any bad experiences he has had with women in the past that could stop him from having a relationship with YOU
The real truth about how men think about women and dating (some of this you won't want to believe, because it's so far from what women think is going on) and the exact things a woman needs to do if she wants it to turn her situation into something that could last
I've read all the books, heard the speakers and seminars and listened and learned about everything out there for women. It wasn't until I started discussing with women this ONE THING that everything fell together. I'll share with you the most powerful thing a woman can do to be more successful at attracting and keeping men, and why almost no women do it
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The single most important thing a single woman can learn - how to identify a good man. And avoid all the wrong ones!
Why your man won't open up to you (Here's a magical way to communicate that makes him want to pour his heart out)
How to pinpoint a man's reasons for not committing so you know exactly what to do about it
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When I first put "Catch Him And Keep Him" out there for women to read, I was honestly nervous.
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Saturday, August 02, 2008

Thursday, July 31, 2008

i feel like the most horrible person on earth, I feel so lost, I don’t even know what im doing anymore most of the time, sometimes i would ask myself what could have i done wrong to even deserve this. but come to think of it, i this could have been my carma. ive done a lot of bad things, things i couldnt even think of. but i guess we all have a past, skeletons we keep on our closets, we lock it hard and we lock it good and throw the key away on a desert of sand. but i wonder how others were able to handle it without losing sanity. some would often say that its really like this and you cant have the best of all. you have the career, you lose the rest. oh well, i wanted to just shrug a shoulder and have it all be forgotten but most of the time, it brings me so down deep. i feel so depressed and the bad thing is i cant help myself. i would look in the mirror most of the time and see someone whose like the opposite of what i wanted to be. i would often say its just a pace and i could get tru this, yet the clock ticks and it hits me good. i better have my head checked or youll find me in mandaluyong one of this days.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

ok, i deleted it na, i dont usually delete my posts but since dami ang sumama ang loob sa blog ko na un. haaayyyy... kilig... ang samang isiping hanggang dun na lang me. nakakalungkot. anyways lahat naman yata e kasi there can only be one amongst many of us, and im sure na di tayo un. Charge it to experience na lang Dina. ok? so remember, smile na lang always and kilig....aaaahhhhhhhhh. lolz

Im funny, im so funny! am I not? hahahah. I know may after shock tong kilig na toh, ill just mind it when it comes, but for now, kaw pa rin ang wallpaper ko till i get over you.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

is it the rain again? do i blame it again on the weather man? I just cant help but feel this way, ever so often. i was told to keep myself busy and that what ive been doing, but i just cant help but feel lonely. i dnt know what i want anymore. i dont know anymore. Im just going with whatever comes my way right now. with no nothing to hold on to. i know i will regret this but i have no other options but get by with the big waves that goes my way. pero sana lang, pls, ayoko na maging malungkot o maging dahilan ng kalungkutan ng iba.

Monday, July 14, 2008

ok so you never loved me, all i am to you is another partner you can take comfort with on your lonesome days. one of those 27 girls you have spinning round and round all these years. ok fine so i am to blame, so you love her, so you really love her, yet you just cant say no to me and to the rest of the bad girls club, i should have known better, i am a manager, they look after me, follow my commands, setting examples for all my subordinates, yet here i am, i guess its what they say a idiotic phase, where you put your name to shame, carry the blame, i guess this is it, i guess this puts an end to it. you love her, you love her, you love her. but i hate that i still think of you so, but im ready to let you go. i just feel sorry to be a part of this, well whats new, ive always been known to be stupid in this game. just know that i still care and good luck. you are who you are, but i will be here to watch over your back, i promise.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

I cant forget this poem, this is the very first poem I've memorized since grade school, thought to me by my mama dear.

Did you know that God above
created you and me for love,
he picked you of all the rest
because he knew I loved you best
I had a heart it was true
but now its gone from me to you
So care for it like what i do
cause I have none and you have two
If I go to heaven and your not there
I'll wait for you on the golden stairs
If your not there on judgement day
I knew youve gone the other way
So I'll return my angel wings
My golden ring and everything
To prove to you my love is true
I'll go to hell to be with you


Tuesday, July 08, 2008

One Hello

If you're not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It's a chance you'll take
It's a chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you're not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you'll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh... Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

this is how i feel

theres a hole with an intensity that grows every minute im alone, brings me down, so down that i can hardly breathe, something i cant express, it makes me realize how alone i am, how in dept i am, how empty i had been all along, smile but trully hurting, laugh but deeply bleeding, trapped in this darkness, it sophocates, it deceives, no one can see, no one care, no one understands, no one. so with all these wounds i move on in darkness, i linger alone.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

I kinda browse at Herbs friendster today. And I saw something that touched the very heart of mine. A fathers day card. Fathers day didn’t really matter to me thinking my father is dead and I wasn’t on my emo mode last June 15. It just went by with me shrugging shoulder out of people celebrating it. I didnt even remember greeting Herb that day. I totally forgot that he’s a father of 3 too. The I saw a card, a card that expresses their love to my beloved Herb. A card filled with emotions, thanking my Herb for his sacrifices and love. I cant help but think, ito ang pamilyang muntik ko na masira. Ang mga anak na muntik ko na maagawan ng ama. I can only careless about his wife, but the kids, poor kids if we’ve been selfish. Pano sila??? Herb has made me swear not to enter in this kind of relationship again when we parted. Now I swear for myself, I will not engage myself in that kind of relationship anymore. I will not. But I love him, I still love him and will always love him.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

a week it was

Saturday, June 07, 2008



My Mr. McDreamy.... oh la la.
Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone

Thursday, June 05, 2008

going solo

Its been like more than a month since I moved out. May 30 it was when I transferred to my new home. I wanted to go solo so I can learn how to do it on my own without having my mom to do things for me when I’m at home. So far, I can say its fun to be alone, magastos lang nga. My agents would normally quote me as barat or kuripot. With the way things are going now, I have to be kuripot really, financially I’m not that stable. I have a lot of obligations and to mention a few, I have a family in to support in Santolan, the housing in Santolan, the pag ibig house we took at San Mateo, my internet, my phone bill, my rent in my new house, my own electricity and water bill and to top it all, my credit card bill which goes 7thou monthly on my citi, ouch. I cant even save anymore. Living alone, I’m thinking the city has made me a hard person. Yet if I stay out, it could make me too soft too. Never the less, this is what I am now. I’m afraid that if this continues, I might turn out to be a horrible person, no relationship might last because of me worrying about money at all time. I don’t want to be this person, If only I could be financially stable, but I’m not. So all boils down to budgeting. Sorry guys, as much as I want to treat you like I used to before when I still handle a team, I just couldn’t now a days.

Monday, June 02, 2008

emo...

Is It Over?
Is it over, are you really over him
Is it over, or will you take him back againI
f it's over you can let his memory in
Come on over, we'll let our love begin.
You say you can't count the times that he's hurt you
And he's hurt you for the last time
Now you say I'm the one that you're needing
But is the need in your heart or just in your mind.
Is it over, are you really over him
Is it over, or will you take him back again
If it's over you can let his memory in
Come on over, we'll let our love begin.
You know that I'm yours for the asking
If you're really asking, for true love
Words can't express how I want you
Oh, how I want to believe you're giving him up.
But is it over are you really over him
Is it over or will you take him back again
If it's over you can let his memory in
Come on over we'll let our love begin.
Is it over, come on over let our love begin.I
s it over...

I Don't Want You To Go
Here I am Alone and I don't understand
Exactly how it all began T
he dream just walked away
[Refrain] I'm holding on
When all but the passion's gone
[Chorus] And from the start
Maybe I was tryin' to hard It's crazy coz it's breakin' my heart
Things can fall apart but I know, That I don't want you to go
And heroes die, When they ignore the cause inside
But they learn from what's left behind
And fight for something else
[Refrain] And so it goes
That we have both learned how to grow
(Repeat Chorus)
[Bridge] Oh it's just too much
Takin' all the whole world all by myself
But it's not enough
Unless I stop trusting somebody else, Somebody else
And love again
[Instrumental Interlude]
And from the start
Maybe we were tryin' to hard
It's crazy coz it's breakin' our hearts
Things can fall apart but I know, That I don't want you to go, no
Maybe we were tryin' to hard
It's crazy coz it's breakin' our hearts
Things can fall apart but I know,
That I don't want you to go
Oh no, don't want you to go

Saturday, May 31, 2008



I miss my Mau Mau a lot, so cute and cudly. He has not changed a bit, hes still so makulit.

Friday, May 23, 2008



A promise of love that lasts a lifetime. Gives me the chill even just looking at it.

Friday, May 16, 2008

YOU'RE STILL THE ONE
(When I first saw you, I saw love. And the first time you touched me, I felt love. And after all this time, you're still the one I love.)

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)Y
ou're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
Went out today with a smile on my face, but that smile soon faded as I realize that I’m dining out alone, again, asking the waiter table for one please, sitting there waiting for my order like an idiot talking to no one as the crowd passes by. No one cares where I go, no one cares what I do. As the day goes by I realize, I only got one text message for day, and that’s from my mom. Heck, WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with me, I shouldn’t get affected by these anymore. I used to say im ready to grow old alone. Why this drama? Arrrggghhhh, I don’t feel like going to work today, I so don’t feel like it but i got to. Got no option. I have to.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Its been raining lately, makes me think a lot again, think of senseless fears. A few more years and I’m out of the calendar. I’m at the point where if a stranger asks me to marry in a hallway, Id say yes. Lolz. Nah Kidding, not that desperate. Its just that I feel like somewhere out there there’s a man I’m supposed to marry and I didn’t get to him first. He’s got a wife and a kid and now I’m thinking someone else has married my husband. Or is it that I’m just another home wrecker who expected too much out of a forbidden love.

One thing I could say is he’s my ultimate love. A love that no one can match. Situation has it so I’m moving on. I guess this is the end of the line for us. JC and I kinda getting to know each other more each . I’m still not so sure if this will work but heck I guess well see.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Debt

one of our aftershift meeting where we gave out certificates to thetop sellers of the week.

PICTURES

Thursday, May 08, 2008


Me and Chris, Chris and I. Hmmm? will it work? Nah...just hanging by a moment.


Monday, May 05, 2008

IM SO FUCKIN UNHAPPY!!! could have been out 10th month. God give me a reason to still believe in this crap.

Saturday, April 26, 2008


I opened my eyes and all seems like it was just a dream, i reach for you and you werent there. Who am I to turn to? Without you what am I supposed to do? How do I stay when everyone is telling me to move on? Fill me in.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

I feel like a shit today, didnt get enough sleep at all, boss Jay and Long took off back to US earlier, I feel a bit emotional whenever I think that they’re gonna be gone for sometime again. Em gonna miss those two for sure, theyre like my physically big brothers yet childish at most time.

I miss Herb too, its been sometime that I wrote, I feel bad for opening a lot of emotions sometimes here in my blog cause it always ends up as disaster anyways. There I was proclaiming how I love Herb and how our relationship wont bend, yet I am here again alone.

I have like over a hundred people under my wings and most of them had become a friend to me, work wise, I guess Im a credible adviser. But when they come for love advises, I definitely dont wanna mess with that for mine myself is a mess.


I recently went out dating a couple of cuties yet all just seems to not be working.

Im so lame I swear. aarrrggghhhh

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Sa totoo lang, parang wala na silbi ang buhay para sakin. eto na naman ako sa aking litanya. paulit ulit. Mag isa na naman ako. walang kaibigan. Feel so alone talaga. haayyy.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

i heard it all before so never again...but if you ask me to, i just might so let me dont make me beg.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

punyeta! why not just kill me! not this, not now! alone, alone thats what ive been, no him no her, give me some credits. u left me and have taken it all, now im doing this alone again and im gonna make it just like before. just go. been working my ass out with no questions asked so dont ask me why! thats the plan right?

Friday, February 15, 2008

kung alam lang nila ang problema ko ngayon, kung alam lang nila. HAAAAYYYYY... ayokong isa isahin, i will just feel bad again. Hell is breathing, breathing is living.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008





LOVE THIS MOVIE, hear a couple of my favorite songs by clicking the pics above or go to this site : http://sweeneytoddmylove.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

sorry im absent.. im sick ................and tired

i have not been feeling good lately, start of 2008 has been very heavy to me. its been raining lately too. and all this no money shits has been getting in my way of a good day. says who that i dont have money? i have, its just so not enough. as if it matters that much. i dont feel like going to work either, i feel like the dogs and bitches ive trained has grown wild and ready to attack me at my back. i need a change. badly. i want to work with a different company, a different line preferably although call center aint that bad either. i want new work, new place, new people to mingle with. its been 3 years with econnect, meaning its been 3 years with no sss, no pag ibig and no savings too. and the simple request of my boss to release my check, that they cant even do on time. they recently announced a meeting that they them selves cant attend. am i being harsh? or am i just so tired of the system? there is a problem here and i feel like im being a part of the problem. ive been seeing accounts come and go, although this doesnt affect me, should i just shrug a shoulder? amidst all this comes my anxiety attacts and sleepless nights. i feel so tired. some one pls give me sleeping pill. i wanna be able to accomplish things but heck, im so bounded right now that i cant even do a thing. damn!

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Jesus Take The Wheel

Its early morning and im crying over this song...crazy me.

CARRIE UNDERWOOD LYRICS

Jesus Take The Wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It would been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road
I'm onJesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road
I'm onFrom this road
I'm onJesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

I dnt know about you guys but if given a choice amongst all places in the philippines, I would choose baguio over everything. Love Baguio. Here are some pics taken on my trip last Dec 9 and Dec 22.

Saturday, December 22, 2007