Went out today with a smile on my face, but that smile soon faded as I realize that I’m dining out alone, again, asking the waiter table for one please, sitting there waiting for my order like an idiot talking to no one as the crowd passes by. No one cares where I go, no one cares what I do. As the day goes by I realize, I only got one text message for day, and that’s from my mom. Heck, WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with me, I shouldn’t get affected by these anymore. I used to say im ready to grow old alone. Why this drama? Arrrggghhhh, I don’t feel like going to work today, I so don’t feel like it but i got to. Got no option. I have to.