i feel like the most horrible person on earth, I feel so lost, I don’t even know what im doing anymore most of the time, sometimes i would ask myself what could have i done wrong to even deserve this. but come to think of it, i this could have been my carma. ive done a lot of bad things, things i couldnt even think of. but i guess we all have a past, skeletons we keep on our closets, we lock it hard and we lock it good and throw the key away on a desert of sand. but i wonder how others were able to handle it without losing sanity. some would often say that its really like this and you cant have the best of all. you have the career, you lose the rest. oh well, i wanted to just shrug a shoulder and have it all be forgotten but most of the time, it brings me so down deep. i feel so depressed and the bad thing is i cant help myself. i would look in the mirror most of the time and see someone whose like the opposite of what i wanted to be. i would often say its just a pace and i could get tru this, yet the clock ticks and it hits me good. i better have my head checked or youll find me in mandaluyong one of this days.