i feel like the most horrible person on earth, I feel so lost, I don’t even know what im doing anymore most of the time, sometimes i would ask myself what could have i done wrong to even deserve this. but come to think of it, i this could have been my carma. ive done a lot of bad things, things i couldnt even think of. but i guess we all have a past, skeletons we keep on our closets, we lock it hard and we lock it good and throw the key away on a desert of sand. but i wonder how others were able to handle it without losing sanity. some would often say that its really like this and you cant have the best of all. you have the career, you lose the rest. oh well, i wanted to just shrug a shoulder and have it all be forgotten but most of the time, it brings me so down deep. i feel so depressed and the bad thing is i cant help myself. i would look in the mirror most of the time and see someone whose like the opposite of what i wanted to be. i would often say its just a pace and i could get tru this, yet the clock ticks and it hits me good. i better have my head checked or youll find me in mandaluyong one of this days.

ok, i deleted it na, i dont usually delete my posts but since dami ang sumama ang loob sa blog ko na un. haaayyyy... kilig... ang samang isiping hanggang dun na lang me. nakakalungkot. anyways lahat naman yata e kasi there can only be one amongst many of us, and im sure na di tayo un. Charge it to experience na lang Dina. ok? so remember, smile na lang always and kilig....aaaahhhhhhhhh. lolz

Im funny, im so funny! am I not? hahahah. I know may after shock tong kilig na toh, ill just mind it when it comes, but for now, kaw pa rin ang wallpaper ko till i get over you.

is it the rain again? do i blame it again on the weather man? I just cant help but feel this way, ever so often. i was told to keep myself busy and that what ive been doing, but i just cant help but feel lonely. i dnt know what i want anymore. i dont know anymore. Im just going with whatever comes my way right now. with no nothing to hold on to. i know i will regret this but i have no other options but get by with the big waves that goes my way. pero sana lang, pls, ayoko na maging malungkot o maging dahilan ng kalungkutan ng iba.

ok so you never loved me, all i am to you is another partner you can take comfort with on your lonesome days. one of those 27 girls you have spinning round and round all these years. ok fine so i am to blame, so you love her, so you really love her, yet you just cant say no to me and to the rest of the bad girls club, i should have known better, i am a manager, they look after me, follow my commands, setting examples for all my subordinates, yet here i am, i guess its what they say a idiotic phase, where you put your name to shame, carry the blame, i guess this is it, i guess this puts an end to it. you love her, you love her, you love her. but i hate that i still think of you so, but im ready to let you go. i just feel sorry to be a part of this, well whats new, ive always been known to be stupid in this game. just know that i still care and good luck. you are who you are, but i will be here to watch over your back, i promise.

I cant forget this poem, this is the very first poem I've memorized since grade school, thought to me by my mama dear.

Did you know that God above
created you and me for love,

he picked you of all the rest

because he knew I loved you best

I had a heart it was true

but now its gone from me to you

So care for it like what i do

cause I have none and you have two
If I go to heaven and your not there

I'll wait for you on the golden stairs

If your not there on judgement day

I knew youve gone the other way

So I'll return my angel wings

My golden ring and everything

To prove to you my love is true

I'll go to hell to be with you

One Hello

If you're not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It's a chance you'll take
It's a chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you're not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you'll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh... Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello