I myself noticed how egocentric this blog is, its just that i feel that my family is a reserved treasure, i would wanna keep them to me and for me alone, i dnt wanna have to say this things here but thats just how i feel right now, if i wont let it out, this blog will be untrue and covered with plasticity.
My fathers health condition has been really affecting my emotional state lately. Hes been diagnosed with liposarcoma, tumors are all over his body that has made him bedridden for a couple months now. If I could carry his cross today, I will. Sometimes Im thinking that this could be the karma to all the sins I have done. But Im thinking its too unfair to do so thinking that the total effect of my actions and conduct during the successive phases of of my lifes existence, regarded as determining my fathers destiny.
He has undergone cobalt but even doctors had given up on him saying that even chemotherapy wont do. We then have turned to alternative medicine. Were hoping that this will do the magic that weve been expecting. I wanna see my father on his feet again! My heart is being torn into tiny pieces as I see him in pain and as he ask for help to end it all. But I wont, we wont, we will fight and do everything for his cure.
For somtime now, I have not been a believer. I dig inside and still see a little faith from deep within. Im hoping for the light to come to this dim little place of mine. A miracle. I want to be a living witness of the love and hope that the our lord has promised. Pls pray with me as hang on to my faith on the darkest part of my life.
O Lord Almighty, the Healer of our souls and bodies, You Who put down and raise up, Who chastise and heal also; do You now, in Your great mercy, visit our brother Jhun, who is sick. Stretch forth Your hand that is full of healing and health, and get him up from his bed, and cure him of his illness. Put away from him the spirit of disease and of every malady, pain and fever to which he is bound; and if he has sins and transgressions, grant to him remission and forgiveness, in that You love mankind; yea, Lord my God, pity Your creation, through the compassions of Your Only-Begotten Son, together with Your All-Holy, Good and Life-creating Spirit, with Whom You are blessed, both now and ever, and to the ages of ages. Amen.
Let us pray to the Lord. Lord have mercy.
Thank you for taking time to pray with me. May God bless us all.
