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'PICK ME, CHOOSE ME, LOVE ME'

Nah, im not Meredith Grey to say this, I wont say that even to my very own McDreamy.

Angels Creed

Consciousness fades; as the dim light of sanity kisses you goodbye
Someone else’s takes over; a pride less monster within
With an animal instinct that forgets about the so called decency
It gives a different synergy that takes off all the heavy loads

You start hearing your own voice in a crowd
And you suddenly want to be the star of the night
Oh my, is that an angel wings tryin to come out and wanting to soar
Wondering who can I hit tonight for a coyote ugly morning

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September 28 --- bagyong bagyo ---
Longing treacherously, dark cloud fills the skyline
Tarnished the day as it slowly leaves
As it abate the courage that dwells within
Starving for your presence yet wanting to forget
Strongly denying the fact that you left
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Josie Geller: You know, emperor penguins spend their whole lives looking for that one other penguin and when they meet them, they know. And they spend the rest of their lives together.

Josie Geller: That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.

when we were together
Felt like foreverwe brought our feeling to a different level
feels like would end never
and suddenly the feeling was gone
and now youre with another woman
i know i should move on
but the memory goes on and on
like the song of love that never fades
thats clings to me every now and then
a picture of love gone bad
when all hurtful words has been said
What I feel can't be put in words
when loneliness plays the part
and happiness hides like the sun in the clouds
heart of stone i carry, crying out loud
i move on pretentiously
with the thought wherever I go you'll be there
but you never were, only loneliness is
follows thru thy aching hearts memory
i love you not, that i am not certain
you love me not, the pictures would prove it
never the less i wanna erase the memory
thats makes each day a little bleak and crazy
and now i ostrasice myself
as i am invited in a party of solitude
dancing with my memories
alone, in pain and in tears

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im not the same and Im in pain. I feel so incomplete. this is gonna be the first christmas that were gonna spend just the 3 of us. the 3 women of the house. I miss him a lot, why did he have to go this early. Im not yet ready. I still need him. I need him so bad. I miss our breakfast talk and our arguments. I miss it when we chat, I miss the way he talks and the way he laugh so loud. He has a lot of dreams that I'm starting to fulfill. The house is almost done. He has always dreamed of it this way, he would have loved it. My papa would always say 'ayusin nyo anak, wag na kayo gumaya saming walang narating.' I havent made it there but I would bet he would have been happy for me and my sister. Im not perfect that im trying my best. No word can describe how i feel right now. If I could die to be with him I wont think twice. I miss you so much. I wish I could have said some things I've always wanted to say when you were still here, but I guess you'll never know. Im down and Im not doing well without you. I know I have to let you go but no one is gonna take your place and I dont see it happening soon. I love you Papa.

DRINK MODERATELY....this is what you will see in all the commercials for liquor drinks...but what really happens when you go over the thin line of sanity and being so wasted and not knowing what you are getting into anymore...is it gonna be cayote ugly? Well lets see, the ff pictures proves that you cant control yourself when you are too freakin' drunk.

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Hanging on to my little faith

i guess when you grow older thats when you will realize that life is not all about you, its not about having new clothes for yourself; jewelries and all the good stuffs; it makes you think more of your family; i still live with my family, everyday we see each other but today, i dont wanna have to blame it on the rain again, I MISS THEM, i miss them a lot that it gives me the creeps to think that my life is meaningless with out them, i really dont care of what is to happen with me as long as they are in good condition.

I myself noticed how egocentric this blog is, its just that i feel that my family is a reserved treasure, i would wanna keep them to me and for me alone, i dnt wanna have to say this things here but thats just how i feel right now, if i wont let it out, this blog will be untrue and covered with plasticity.

My fathers health condition has been really affecting my emotional state lately. Hes been diagnosed with liposarcoma, tumors are all over his body that has made him bedridden for a couple months now. If I could carry his cross today, I will. Sometimes Im thinking that this could be the karma to all the sins I have done. But Im thinking its too unfair to do so thinking that the total effect of my actions and conduct during the successive phases of of my lifes existence, regarded as determining my fathers destiny.

He has undergone cobalt but even doctors had given up on him saying that even chemotherapy wont do. We then have turned to alternative medicine. Were hoping that this will do the magic that weve been expecting. I wanna see my father on his feet again! My heart is being torn into tiny pieces as I see him in pain and as he ask for help to end it all. But I wont, we wont, we will fight and do everything for his cure.

For somtime now, I have not been a believer. I dig inside and still see a little faith from deep within. Im hoping for the light to come to this dim little place of mine. A miracle. I want to be a living witness of the love and hope that the our lord has promised. Pls pray with me as hang on to my faith on the darkest part of my life.

O Lord Almighty, the Healer of our souls and bodies, You Who put down and raise up, Who chastise and heal also; do You now, in Your great mercy, visit our brother Jhun, who is sick. Stretch forth Your hand that is full of healing and health, and get him up from his bed, and cure him of his illness. Put away from him the spirit of disease and of every malady, pain and fever to which he is bound; and if he has sins and transgressions, grant to him remission and forgiveness, in that You love mankind; yea, Lord my God, pity Your creation, through the compassions of Your Only-Begotten Son, together with Your All-Holy, Good and Life-creating Spirit, with Whom You are blessed, both now and ever, and to the ages of ages. Amen.
Let us pray to the Lord. Lord have mercy.


Thank you for taking time to pray with me. May God bless us all.

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isa na namang araw ang dumaan, maraming problema ang nalagpasan di akalaing ganito katibay, o Diyos kailangan ko ang inyong gabay

i hate the rain

malakas ang ulan sa labas kaya tambay muna ko dito sa blog ko, i dnt know whats with the rain but i really dont like it, when it rains, it bring a deep feeling of despondent. A downward force that pulls, and drowns me to the pictures of the past that i would want burried. Prospects were bleak. makes a river of tears flow in the window of my souls.

As rain comes with a strong wind, sa sobrang lakas it brings me to a certain level of desperation, Recklessness arising from despair pushing me to do things i never wanna do ever again. Sana tumigil na ang ulan, madness takes over as it continues to pour, nakakabaliw, as i pray for it to stop, lalong lumalakas. Ano nga ba ang meron sa ulan? hayy naku... so kaka ever, o cia, tulog na nga ako. this could be the effect of too much coffee and no sleep. eeek!

in my eyes

In my eyes, everyone wears a mask;
the society is obscured by the curse hypocrites cast.
They claim it to be true when they say they love you;
but who knows whether they are loving the empire that you have built or the flesh that is bound to be dust.
In my eyes, there are lots of good looking guys out there,hang on for a moment and true colors will show, theyr all gays.
I fear all.
I guess i'll just wait till I have no fears and hesitations before I act, but i shall be dead by then.at least then i'll feel nothing @ all.
How ever we try saying we have friends,even if the wolf protects the goat, it doesn't mean it wont eat the goat.Saying you have true friends is like saying I never liked Britney Spears.Fool!!!
All that is there left is to keep on hoping.
In my eyes,life Sucks!!! Take me to where you are oh grandma.
I hate the world today, tomorrow is a different day!

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just so when you feel you are not alone, look back and check whos empty handed. when all you got is a piece of fugly ass, can never match whatever youve had. now im going and gone for good, i wish to state my case once and for all. ikaw ang nawalan at di ako, maraming nawalang luha pero alam ko isang araw, ngingiti uli ako. i wish i could wake up from this nightmare in sight, with you holding hands oh what a crap! all i can say is CHAKA...chaka ever ! sana maganda o guwapo rin sya, so i wont feel demeaned, promise Toby, eto na ang huli kong pag browse sa frendster mo!


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