My birthdays is coming. I feel so lonely. Im gonna be a year older again and yet has accomplished nothing. I just hope and pray that I get a baby this year and my own toy dog. Something that I can focus on and could give me happiness. Something to give my life direction and worth. I have not been doinggood lately, frustrations with job, family, friends and relationship kicking in. This isnt good at all. I feel like a candle burning and is nearing its root, the light i have given aint even enough to lead myself to the right path. all there is are tears of pain and suffering. I feel that i am unable to focus, so inefficient at work and so incable of loving and be loved.

This was the pics taken last year.
I dont even remember what i wished for when I blew the candle, and whatever it was, I dont think it came true this year. I think I wrote it on my blog last year but unfortunately my birthday blog was deleted.