sorry im absent.. im sick ................and tired

i have not been feeling good lately, start of 2008 has been very heavy to me. its been raining lately too. and all this no money shits has been getting in my way of a good day. says who that i dont have money? i have, its just so not enough. as if it matters that much. i dont feel like going to work either, i feel like the dogs and bitches ive trained has grown wild and ready to attack me at my back. i need a change. badly. i want to work with a different company, a different line preferably although call center aint that bad either. i want new work, new place, new people to mingle with. its been 3 years with econnect, meaning its been 3 years with no sss, no pag ibig and no savings too. and the simple request of my boss to release my check, that they cant even do on time. they recently announced a meeting that they them selves cant attend. am i being harsh? or am i just so tired of the system? there is a problem here and i feel like im being a part of the problem. ive been seeing accounts come and go, although this doesnt affect me, should i just shrug a shoulder? amidst all this comes my anxiety attacts and sleepless nights. i feel so tired. some one pls give me sleeping pill. i wanna be able to accomplish things but heck, im so bounded right now that i cant even do a thing. damn!