FOREVER

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September 28 --- bagyong bagyo ---
Longing treacherously, dark cloud fills the skyline
Tarnished the day as it slowly leaves
As it abate the courage that dwells within
Starving for your presence yet wanting to forget
Strongly denying the fact that you left
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Josie Geller: You know, emperor penguins spend their whole lives looking for that one other penguin and when they meet them, they know. And they spend the rest of their lives together.

Josie Geller: That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.

when we were together
Felt like foreverwe brought our feeling to a different level
feels like would end never
and suddenly the feeling was gone
and now youre with another woman
i know i should move on
but the memory goes on and on
like the song of love that never fades
thats clings to me every now and then
a picture of love gone bad
when all hurtful words has been said
What I feel can't be put in words
when loneliness plays the part
and happiness hides like the sun in the clouds
heart of stone i carry, crying out loud
i move on pretentiously
with the thought wherever I go you'll be there
but you never were, only loneliness is
follows thru thy aching hearts memory
i love you not, that i am not certain
you love me not, the pictures would prove it
never the less i wanna erase the memory
thats makes each day a little bleak and crazy
and now i ostrasice myself
as i am invited in a party of solitude
dancing with my memories
alone, in pain and in tears

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im not the same and Im in pain. I feel so incomplete. this is gonna be the first christmas that were gonna spend just the 3 of us. the 3 women of the house. I miss him a lot, why did he have to go this early. Im not yet ready. I still need him. I need him so bad. I miss our breakfast talk and our arguments. I miss it when we chat, I miss the way he talks and the way he laugh so loud. He has a lot of dreams that I'm starting to fulfill. The house is almost done. He has always dreamed of it this way, he would have loved it. My papa would always say 'ayusin nyo anak, wag na kayo gumaya saming walang narating.' I havent made it there but I would bet he would have been happy for me and my sister. Im not perfect that im trying my best. No word can describe how i feel right now. If I could die to be with him I wont think twice. I miss you so much. I wish I could have said some things I've always wanted to say when you were still here, but I guess you'll never know. Im down and Im not doing well without you. I know I have to let you go but no one is gonna take your place and I dont see it happening soon. I love you Papa.

DRINK MODERATELY....this is what you will see in all the commercials for liquor drinks...but what really happens when you go over the thin line of sanity and being so wasted and not knowing what you are getting into anymore...is it gonna be cayote ugly? Well lets see, the ff pictures proves that you cant control yourself when you are too freakin' drunk.

click the brandy picture above to reveals what it is like when the "monghas" gets drunk. haha!